ugh

I woke up this morning still with a fight at the rim of my lips.

Who were we fooling?! I was right. Being bored and being horny only lead that conversation. There are no emotions there for me. There is no care or consideration of me.

Are you serious? Say something because you mean with all your heart and soul. I don't want to here the lies or fabrications you can spin with tips of your fingers and the with the fork of your tongue.

Quick Mid-Summer Thoughts...

People surprise me all the time. From the older men still attempting to hit on me, friends of old deciding to get hitched so soon after graduation, those who seemed important deciding to exercise silence, and those in silence deciding to talk.

My mother expresses how much she still loves my old flame. Still gunning for us to be together for the long haul, she demonstrates how strong the tie is. The thoughts run in my head blurring together "was", "is", "when", "if", "soon", and the emotions I can not ignore.

Seems the main question in mind is which is harder? Moving forward or keeping the past.